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How Now, Butterfly?

By: Charity Lee, Brian Whitney
Narrated by: Larissa Peterson
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Summary

Losing a young daughter to murder is the worst nightmare that a mother could possibly imagine, but what if the killer was her son? Charity Lee was thrust into this unimaginable situation when her 13-year-old son, Paris, murdered her beloved four-year-old daughter, Ella.

Charity goes through intense grief at the loss of her daughter, while at the same time trying to understand why her son would have done something as horrific as this, and how she could have missed the signs that Paris was a true psychopath.

While barely holding herself together throughout her intense grief, Charity is still a mother and feels a need to advocate for her son to receive appropriate treatment while incarcerated, while at the same time trying to ensure he stays in prison so he can never hurt someone again. Charity still loves her son and craves a connection with him despite all he has done. Because of her experiences, she rebuilds her life and starts a non-profit to help other families of victims, as well as offenders.

This book is a meditation on grief, loss, and forgiveness unlike any other. It's also an inspirational story of a true survivor. Well-written and haunting How Now, Butterfly? is a book that no listener will soon forget.

©2020 Charity Lee (P)2020 WildBlue Press
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Repetitive, lacking insight, superficial. Understandable that author would want to keep certain information private but missed opportunity to offer insight into complex issues and awful tragedy.
Narration dreadful.

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it's her dairy after the event

I don't want to be mean. I understand she has been though unthinkable pain.
but, I thought she could share a bit more of Paris's childhood, the years he existing as only child...and more of him a big brother of Ella.
But all the hours of listening is repeatedly moaning and depression
she hates her mother..maybe just like Paris hates her. But as a reader, there's no Reveal of "why".
there's very quick and strong withdraw of love from her toward Paris. although she claims "I love my son, no matter what"...

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heart aching ,bitter sweet and terrifying

this is a story about pain and suffering and the unconditional love of a mother. the story is utterly heart breaking and every mothers nightmare. charity is so poetic in her words and her love for her children shines through with every heart breaking, bitter sweet word. she really is the most amazingly strong woman.

I found this book enthralling, I could not put it down, I felt every bit of pain and turmoil like I was actually experiencing it myself.

this is a truly unbelievable story but yet it is not fiction this actually happened.

the narrative is wonderful and I was often brought to tears listening.

I highly recommend this book

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